The Highs and Lows of 2007

1. The loss of my friend Gina. This hit me really hard. I hadn't talked to her in a couple months prior to her death, and regret that more than anything. Gina & I had been friends for 15 years, and I still want to give her a call to chat about Days, football & everyday life. I have been blessed with having her visit me in my dreams, but just wish I would have had the chance to say goodbye!
2. The birth of Bradyn Michael. What a beautiful baby. I am so blessed to have two healthy boys!
3. The birth of Hollyn Jessica. My sister, Jessica had baby #3 and she is an adorable girl!
4. Difficult pregnancy. I wass off work for 4-5 months due to pregnancy complications! That has been financially challenging, but worth it!
5. Brady's Dad is doing well. Bill was diagnosed with stage 4 kidney cancer in 2006, but is responding well to his chemo and there is no cancer growth--YEAH!
6. The loss of Brady's grandparents. Clarence & Katie Becker both passed away this summer, and that has been hard for the family!
7. The loss of my dog, Benny. My little chihuahua had to be put to sleep, and I still miss the little booger!
8. Lots of improvements to our house. We now have central heat & air, and have remodeled the 2nd bedroom upstairs, and have new carpet upstairs! It has been awesome!
9. Broken Brady. Brady has had lots of back problems, so has been somewhat grouchy.
10. Jaxon rurned 1. He is so much fun as he grow & changes. We laugh often. A dsy with Jaxon is never dull, he loves to entertain and make us laugh!
11. My friend Carol got married. Carol & Norm are very happy and have waited a long time for this much deserved wedded bliss!
12. The Ice Storm. We had a massive ice storm and were without power fo over a week!
13. Nieces & Nephews. I have the greatest nieces & nephews in the world and spending time with them is always the best!
14. My best friend Jill. She is always a "high" point in my life. We continue to be close & have lots in common!
15. My sis. She is my other best friend. I cherish this relationship, and love time spend talking with her or hanging out at my house or hers!
16. My family. I love all of my family & cherish them so much! When you are down & out, like I was on bedrest, you realize just how good your family is. My family was there to help us in so many ways!

My Rant!

My youngest son is already 5 days old! The month prior to his arrival was very challenging, but it is definitely worth it. I hope I never have to go through what I did in the month prior to his delivery. I was on activity restrictions for 3 weeks, and strict bedrest for a week and had to tolerate some pretty challenging situations. I am thankful for my independence. I learned just how hard it is to be physically dependent on somebody else to do day-to-day tasks for you, especially when they don't follow through for you. I always thought I was pretty understanding when it came to things like this, but I now know just how hard it is to have to ask people to do things for you, and then to have them joke about having to do stuff for you. It isn't funny. It is hard enough to ask! The other hard thing is to watch your house fall apart and become a total mess while you are not supposed to do anything about it--that drove me beyond crazy! I am thankful that is all over, and I am back to being able to do things for myself!! It is crazy, but I am thankful to be able to clean my own house, and do my own dishes & laundry!!! Life is good!

You Know a Lot About Christmas

You got 7/10 correct You know tons about the history and traditions surrounding Christmas. When you celebrate the holidays, you never forget their true meaning - or all the little fun details. Random Christmas fact: Only 21% of US households has a real Christmas tree each year.

How Much Do You Know About Christmas?

What The Holidays Mean to You

For you, the holidays are about celebration. You enjoy all the fun and fellowship that the holidays bring. You celebrate the holidays in a minimalist style. You are likely to only give one great present and decorate your house with a few special items. During the holidays, you like to feel cozy and comfortable. You're happy to stay inside with a roaring fire and a warm drink. You think the holidays should be energetic and packed with activities. You'll double up on caffeine and sugar if that's what it takes to get you through them. Your favorite holiday memories strongly evoke your senses. You are vividly aware of all the tastes, smells, and sounds of the holidays.

What Do the Holidays Mean to You?

Christmas MeMe

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? I have both, depends on the gift!
2. Tree--Real or Artificial? Usually go with artificial, but LOVE real trees!
3. When do you put Christmas tree up? Usually a couple days after thanksgiving, but I put it up early this year and am glad I did, or I wouldn't have one!
4. When do you take the tree down? before New Years
5. Like egg nog? I like to have a little every year.
6. Do you have a nativity scene? Only 4 of them
7. Favorite gift received as a child? My barbie townhouse!
8. Hardest person to buy for? Brady
9. Easiest person to buy for? Jaxon, the only hard part is limiting my buying
10. Worst Christmas gift? don't remember a worst gift
11. Mail or email a Christmas card? mail
12. Favorite Christmas movie? The Santa Clause
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? depends on the year
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? nope
15. Favorite food to eat on Christmas? I like lots of homeade candies & cookies
16. Clear or colored tree lights? CLEAR
17. Favorite Christmas Song? It's a Marshmallow World in the Winter
18. Travel during Christmas or Stay home. Travel to Wyoming
19. Can you name Santa's reindeer? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixen, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blizten, Rudolph (I checked and am right :o) )
20. Angel or Star on Tree top? I like an angel best, but have a star for now
21. Open presents on Christmas Eve or morning? christmas morning
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year? People that are never satisfied with the choices we make regarding holiday plans--pisses me off that everybody only thinks of themselves instead of realizing that we are trying to spend quality time with everybody while still enjoying the holiday ourselves!

Post this on your blog, or in a comment on mine! Merry Christmas!!

Going Crazy!

I am now on strict bedrest, and am already going crazy! I knew something was wrong this morning, because of how I was feeling. I called Brady & we went to town to get my blood pressure checked, and it was the highest it has been. We called my doctor, who ordered lots of tests. All came back fine, but she decided that it was time for strict bedrest. That means that I am to be on the couch, in the recliner or in bed at all times. I was on restriction, which meant that I wasnt' to do a lot of walking, or anything strenuous, but I was still able to care for Jaxon and do some basic picking up around here. Now, that is all over. I am not even supposed to be on the stairs and she said I am not even able to make a sandwich for myself. It has been less than 12 hours, and I know I am going to go CRAZY! My doctor said we will have a baby at 38 weeks, which means that I have less than a week on bedrest. That is a good thing, because I am not liking this. My son went to Grandma's to spend the night, and will be spending the day with Brady's cousin tomorrow. I do not like this, and decided that the reason for all the problems is that this baby is named after Brady, and is already starting to be a pain to be like his namesake LOL.

Brady's Buck

Brady wanted me to put these pictures of his buck on the web for all to see. I am glad that he is happy and excited about it. My idea of shooting a deer is with a camera. We are different in that respect. Just wanted the readers of my blog to know how I feel about it (ick).

Christmas Traditions

1. Name 3 of your Christmas traditions: We have oyster stew on Christmas Eve, We have swedish tea ring & egg casserole for Christmas morning breakfast, and we still do stockings . . my sis & I fill them for our parents, and they fill ours.

2. Name a tradition you have always liked, but never done: I like the idea of having a birthday cake for Jesus on Christmas eve.

3. Name a tradition you just learned about: A friend of my sister gives her children 3 gifts, and then talks about how the wise men brought Jesus 3 gifts. It thought that was pretty cool.

4. Fond Christmas Memory: I loved the year that my Dad made lobster and we had Christmas Crackers on Christmas eve. We had a lot of fun!

Taken from Dawn

1. Name someone who made you smile today? Jaxon
2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? just getting up with Jaxon
3. What did you eat last night? extreme tots w/o jalapenos
4. What was something that happened to you in 1997? I was hired by the Sheriff's Dept.
5. What are you looking for? a new job
6. Three words to explain why you last threw up. pregnancy related nausea
7. What color is your hairbrush? pink
8. What was the last thing you bought?Powdered doughnuts -funny, huh Dawn
9. What was the last gift you received? no clue
10. What color is your front door? white
11. Where do you keep your money?Mostly in the bank, a few dollars in my coin purse
12. What was the weather like today?Cool and overcast
13. Where did your last hug take place? home
14. What are you excited about? having this baby
15. When was the last time you sneezed? yesterday
16. What size shoe do you wear? 8
17. Do you like spinach? yes
18. Are you very random? yes
19. Do you want to cut your hair? yes
20. Are you over the age of 25?Yes
21. Do you talk a lot? yes
22. Do you watch The O.C.? no Do priests make good babysitters? I am sure some do
23. Does your screen name have an “x” in it? no
24. Do you know anyone named Kelsey? No How do you feel about question 18? I don't care
25. Do you make up your own words? yeah
26. Are you ticklish? yes
27. Are you typically a jealous person? not really
28. Where do you work? Pediatric Home Health Agency
29. Your latest obsession? Sleep & powdered donuts
30. Who’s the last person to call you? Brady
31. Do you like high heels? No
32. Do you chew on your straws? No
33. Do you have curly hair? No
34. What is the next concert you’re going to? No idea
35. Are you a flirt? a little
36. How many times have you sworn today? More than twice
37. What is something you say a lot? no clue
38. Do you like to sleep? Yes . . prob has something to do with being pregnant and working nights
39. Have you seen the movie ‘Donnie Darko’? nope
40. Do you have to work tomorrow? yes
41. Last person you hung out with? besides Brady & Jaxon . . my sister
42. Who was the last person to say “I love you” to you? Brady
43. What should you be doing right now? going to bed
44. Do you have a nickname? not really
45. Are you a heavy sleeper? Sometimes
46. What time is it?2100 central
47. What is the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks? Haven't seen one
48. Is there anyone you like right now? married, and I do like my husband sometimes lol
49. When was the last time you did the dishes, honestly? yesterday
50. Did you cry today?No

You Are 64% Pure

You're pretty pure, and you have no plans on changing that. You do have a devilish side though... and it will probably get the better of you.

The 100 Question Purity Test

Dumbledore Gay?!

I have been thinking about this information all day, and would like to share some of my thoughts! First of all, I must make it clear that it doesn't change the way I feel about the character. Why would it? I still think he is THE kewlist!! It is shocking, kinda like when you find out a secret about somebody you thought you knew really well! At first, I thought "NO WAY" , he doesn't seem gay to me. I did give it some further thought, and decided that I could accept it, and in my mind compared him to Nate from the Oprah show. Another gay man, who I think is awesome, and in some ways like Dumbledore. The only obvious difference is Nate is HOT!

I have always wondered if Dumbledore had a thing with Madam Pomfrey, Professor McGonnagal or both. Now, I know I was way off. If J.K. Rowling would have said Professor Slughorn was gay, I would have said, "I can see that", but it is a little harder for me to see Professor Dumbledore as gay! What do you think??? Leave a comment!!!

Your Halloween Costume Should Be

Elvis

What Should You Be For Halloween?

Randomness

randomness...feed your mind and your blogweek of sept 23:

do you prefer...

1. day or night?day

2. chocolate or vanilla?chocolate

3. coffee or tea?coffee

4. renting a movie and staying home or going out to the theater?theater with popcorn & m&m's

5. regular books or audio books?both-reading when I can, and audiobooks in the car

6. driving to a faroff destination or just taking an airplane? airplane!!

7. hamburger or hotdogs?hamburger

8. listening to music or watching tv? tv

9. Desperate Housewives or Survivor? (both are tv shows)neither

10. homecooked meal or fancy restaurant?anything I don't have to cook!!

Still Here!

It has been a VERY long time since I took the time to post! I have been following up on everybody elses blogs, but haven't taken the time to write anything on my own! Things here are good! I am approaching my 27th week of pregnancy and am very ready to be DONE and be able to hold this little guy! Other than that, not a whole lot has changed in my life! Jaxon is VERY busy and such a joy! He makes me laugh all the time! I will try to get on here and post something exciting or fun! Take care!!

Change Meme

1. How has your life changed in the last year? I am a Mom and that has made me SO different than before! I love it, but the things that used to be important to me have taken a back burner. Gone are the days of being a thrill seeker, and doing crazy things because they sound like fun.

2. How has it stayed the same? I still enjoy reading, and LOVE Harry Potter books! I look forward to being able to take a vacation. I still like amusement parks, swimming and spending time with friends & family.

3. How has your life changed in the last 6 months? I am pregnant again. That is another big change!

4. What kinds of things do you miss about life before? I miss margaritas and working as a Sheriff's Deputy!

Monday Madness . . .On Tuesday

1. Are there any weird "food rules" you have? Feel free to list as many as you like. I don't like it when the food on my plate touches. . .especially if sweet stuff gets mixed in with the salty :o(

2. When you were growing up, what ONE thing did your parents always remind you of, when it came to meal time (or cooking)?Wash your hands!

3. Is there anyone you know whose food you won't eat (for one reason or another)? I can't think of anybody, but I don't like potlucks, because I like to know who made what I am going to eat!

4. Is there anything you "specialize" in cooking, that people actually ask for? Chicken Enchiladas

5. When you were growing up, what one meal do you remember as being your favorite? I was a big fan of mac & cheese!

6. Today, what is your IDEAL meal? Steak & Shrimp . . . .with a good bottle of wine!

TV Threes

1. David Letterman, Jay Leno or Conan O'Brien? Dave Letterman is the only choice for me!
2. Rachel, Monica or Phoebe? Phoebe . . she is SO funny!
3. Larry, Curly or Moe? no stooges for me
4. ER, House or Grey's Anatomy? ER
5. Oprah, Tyra or Ellen? Oprah, Oprah, Oprah!!

I got this from my friend Dena's blog. I thought it was funny that all our answers are different!

Situation Sunday on . . Thursday

Situation #1
A person you have known many years growing up and that you were close to at one time. Has moved away for like 20 years, and always kept in contact with your younger sibling. Last year you ran into them at a local store. They tell you that they are moving home and going through a divorce,, and to please call and get together. You call and their Mother answers and says they are not here, and you hear them in the background. Many months have passed and you are at your siblings home and they show up, and act like nothing has happened. They ask for your number. Do you give it, and how do you act and feel now towards this person?

Absolutely not! People like that drive me crazy, and I wouldn't feed into their pathetic lies!

Situation #2
You awake one day and for some strange reason, you now have memory loss, amnesia. Every one around you tries to help, but clearly you do not know them or trust them. Your supposedly spouse is very supportive, but you think how the Hell could I have married them.....you have no children......What do you do?

I would take some time to spend by myself, with photos and memories of my past life. I would then go back to see if I could remember or if I could handle my life without memory.

Situation #3
You come home early from work one day, and you catch your spouse in your bed with the hired help. What do you do?

I would take the crazy bitch's clothes into the bathroom and soak them in the toilet and then bring them to her and order her OUT of my house! I would then demand that my husband pack a bag and get the hell out too!

Congrats Tiger & Elin

Isn't this little girl beautiful! This is Sam Alexis Woods, the daughter of my favorite golfer and I just had to put a pic of her on my blog!

Confessions

"X" your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of the quiet
[X] I am really ticklish
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark
[ ] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night (or anytime, for that matter)
[X ] I believe in true love
[ ] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad
[ ] I open up to others easily
[ ] I am keeping a secret
[X] I watch the news
[ ] I own more than 5 rap CDs
[] I own something from Hot Topic
[X] I love Disney movies
[X] I'm a sucker for blue eyes
[X] I don't kill bugs
[X] I curse regularly
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in actual conversation
[ ] I love spam
[ X] I bake well
[X] I have worn pajamas out of the house
[ X] I have owned something from Abercrombie
[X] I have a job
[ ] I love Martha Stewart
[X] I've tried alcohol
[X] I drink alcohol on a regular basis )when I am not prego!
[X] I've tried a cigarette
[X] I've smoked a pack in one day
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick
[ ] I can't swallow pills
[ ] I have many scars
[X] I've been out of this country
[ ] I can't sleep if there's a spider in the room
[X] I love chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails
[ ] I'm comfortable with being myself around EVERYONE
[X] I play computer games when I'm bored
[X] Gotten lost in the city(I get lost anywhere)
[X] Seen a shooting star
[X] Had a serious surgery
[ ] Hugged and/or kissed a stranger
[X] Been arrested
[X] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[X] Swore at my parents
[X] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[X] Gotten stitches
[X] Bitten someone (in preschool
[X] Crashed into a car
[ ] Shoplifted
[X] Been fired
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] Stolen money/profitable items from work
[ ] Stolen supplies from work
[X] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[X] Slept with a co-worker
[X] Been married
[X] Gotten divorced
[X] Saw someone/something dying
[X] Been to Canada
[X] Been on a plane
[X] Thrown up in a bar

Everybody try this one--it is an interesting one and is pretty revealing! I am not proud of some of the things I confessed to!

December 20, 2007

I am getting the coolest early Christmas present this year! I went to my first O.B appointment this week, and we decided on an Induction date already!! I Love it! After she heard about how quickly my labor progressed with Jaxon, she asked if I was up for an induction--and of course I said YES!

I have the best doctor in the world! She is friendly, sincere, and very cautious. I had some spotting, and found out there was bleeding behind the placenta. My doctor has been on top of the situation, with lifting restrictions, and frequest ultrasounds to make sure things are ok! I havent' been able to work for 2 1/2 weeks, and won't be able to work until at least the first week in July. It is challenging to follow the lifting restrictions, and I am looking forward to having a paycheck again soon, but am willing to do whatever it takes to protect this baby!

Nudity/Body Awareness aka "How comfortable are you in your skin, or with others?

"Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? yes, in private settings

When you're home alone, do you strip down to get comfortable? Do you ever go out without underwear (bra and/or panties) because it's more comfortable? I like to be dressed!

Have you ever/Do you use the bathroom with the door open? Are you comfortable using public facilities? I rarely shut the door--only when we have guests! I don' have a problem with public restrooms but I hate port-a-pottys!

When getting intimate with your significant other, lights on or off? for me to know!

How comfortable are you with body exposure/nudity of others? Group shower rooms?, topless/nude beaches?, breastfeeding in public?I hated group showers, but breastfeeding in public is a different story. I would hardly classify it as nudity, as women are usually very discreet and only those intent on seeing the breast get a peek! I am a huge breastfeeding advocate and am thankful that the state of Kansas gives breastfeeding mothers the legal right to breastfeed anywhere!

Getting to Know Your Friends
1. What time did you get up this morning? I didn't--I worked last night!
2. How do you like your steak? medium rare
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Pirates of the Caribbean
4. What is your favorite TV show? Gilmore Girls or Charmed
5. What did you have for breakfast? burrito
6. What is your middle name? Jeanette
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike? chicken livers, pigs feet, tiger meat (raw hamburger)
9. What are your favorite chips? Cheetos
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Harry Potter Audio books
11. What kind of car do you drive? Nissan Quest
12. What is your favorite sandwich? Quizno's Cheese Mix
13. What characteristics do you despise? sneaky, and dishonest
14. What are your favorite clothes? sweats
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would it be? Maui, Maui, Maui
16. Favorite brand of clothing? don't really have one anymore!
17. Where would you want to retire? where my kids are (pretty neat to say kids . .lol)
18. Favorite time of day? afternoon
19. Where were you born? Newcastle, Wy
20. What is your favorite sport to watch? Football
21. Pepsi or coke? Diet Pepsi
22. Ducks or beavers? a good pond has both
23. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Night owl, always have been.
24. Pedicure or manicure? I would choose both!
25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? We're having a baby!!
26. What did you want to be when you were little? Teacher
27. What is your best childhood memory? the Christmas I got my barbie townhouse
28. Piercing? ears, and had bellybutton
29. Ever been to Africa? Nope
30. Ever been toilet papering? Nope
31. Been in a car accident? Yes.
32. Favorite day of the week? Sunday
33. Favorite restaurant? P.F Chang
34. Favorite flower? I like them all!
35. Favorite ice cream? Chocolate Peanut Butter
36. Favorite fast food? McDonalds
37. How many times did your fail your driver's test? Never.
38. From whom did you get your last e-mail? who knows
39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Nebraska Furniture Mart . . TV, new bedroom furniture, the works!
40. Bedtime? Anytime between 10 and midnight, averaging around 11.
41. Last person you went out to dinner with? I'm assuming this is dinner at a restaurant? Brady, Jaxon & my Dad
42. What are you listening to right now? TV
43. What is your favorite color? brick red
44. How many tattoos do you have? 1
45. Favorite magazine? Parents

You Are Most Like Bill Clinton

No doubt, your legacy may be a little seedier than you'd like. But even though you've done some questionable things, you're still loved by almost all.

What Modern US President Are You Most Like?

Surprisingly, I really like Bill Clinton! I wasn't too impressed with him when he was president, but he has done some really good things since then. I have also read part of his book. He has earned a lot of respect from me!

First Reaction Quiz

Okay this is called "FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ". You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 38 things. You can't think and go back and change your answers. Feel free to repost it. Here we go:

1. Beer: Coors Light
2. Anorexic: Not such a bad thing
3. Relationship: Brady
4. Purple: Survivor shirt
5. Power Rangers: big deal
6. weed: marijuana
7. Steroids:Arnold
8. Cartoons: Cars
9. The President: Clinton
10. Tupperware: Rubbermaid
11. Florida: Epcot Center
12. Santa Clause: North Pole Village
13. Halloween: Ghosts
14. Bon Jovi: ICK
15. Grammar: the forgotten part of english
16: Myspace: teenager
17. Worst fear: something happening to Jaxon
18. Marriage: challenge
19. Paris Hilton: skinny
21. Redheads: temper
22. Bleach Blonde's: PWT
23. Pass the time: computer
24. One night stands: pointless
25. Donald Trump: Rosie
26. Neverland: Wendy
27. Pixie Stix: Red
28. Vanilla Ice cream? Apple pie
30. High school: band
31. Pajamas: warm
32. Woody: LOL
33. Wet Sock: stinky
34. Alcohol: Marguarita
35. Love: children
36. My best friends: Jill & Jess
37. The Bible:the word of God
38. Heartache: Clay Center

Easter Fun

1. My favorite things in an Easter basket are __chocolate eggs___!
2. Easter means ___salvation__ to me.
3. The best part of the chocolate Easter bunny is __the ears___.
4. My memories of Easter as a child include___lots of egg hunts_______.
5. ___Orange__ jelly beans are the ones I eat first.
6. I like _pink____ grass in my Easter basket!
7. On Easter, I'll be __at Brady's Moms___.

Mellow Me!

Your Brain is Blue

Of all the brain types, yours is the most mellow. You tend to be in a meditative state most of the time. You don't try to think away your troubles. Your thoughts are realistic, fresh, and honest. You truly see things as how they are. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking about your friends, your surroundings, and your life.

What Color Is Your Brain?

I got this from Dawn's blog! It is pretty neat, but only partially true. I definitely don't see myself as mellow, but the rest of it is pretty accurate! Try it!

Books!

My friend, Dawn, has been reading a book a month, and then writes about these books on her blog. That is a great idea, but it doesn't work for me. I am stuck in a bizarre pattern, and don't know why! When I find a book I like, I HAVE to read it over and over. I read the "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" and the 3 sequels, and then read them all again 2 times. After that, I read Jude Deveroux's "A Knight in Shining Armor" and have read it twice, and have the compulsion to read it again. I have also done this with the Harry Potter books, and the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. I find this behavior a little bit odd, and wonder why I feel the need to read and re-read books over and over again! Any ideas???

Friday Five
1. If you could suddenly speak one language fluently (that you don't currently speak) what would it be?
Japanese
2. If you were to suggest a foreign film, that you really enjoyed, what one would you suggest?
I don't know of any--anybody have a suggestions?
3. If you had to call another country home (other than the one you currently live in) what one would you choose?
Switzerland
4. If you went out to buy an import music CD, what one would you buy?
No clue! I def need to expand my horizons!
5. If you were to chose an ethnic dinner, what would it be?
Indian--I love Indian food!

Scared!

I have faced death before, but now that I have Jaxon, any possible threats to my life are a thousand times more horrifying. I may be over-reacting, but then again, maybe not! Wednesday afternoon, I collapsed while getting ready to go out for Valentines day. Brady gave me a hug (and not a bear hug) and the next thing I knew, he was calling my name, and I felt like I was waking from a deep sleep. I had fallen to the ground and was totally out for about 10 seconds. We went to the clinic, and the only thing that showed up was low blood pressure. I continue to have symptoms of low blood pressure, and am getting worried! It may be exhaustion, but could also be something more serious, like a brain tumor. I am not allowed to work or drive until I see the Doctor again. I hope it is nothing!!!

I am scared that I will miss out on seeing my precious little boy grow into a man. I have waited so long to have this little guy, and now there is a chance that I may miss out on all of his important life moments. I want to see him walk, start school, graduate, and all the little things in between. I have so many things I want to teach him. I want him to know that he is enough, and that there is somebody in this world who loves him for him, and not for his accomplishments. I want him to know the importance of spreading joy to everybody you meet. I also want to spend lots of time laughing and loving him. I hope that I get that chance. These last couple of days with him have been even more special to me, and I didn't ever think that was possible. I cherish all the time I get with my incredible little boy, and all I want is to share in his life . . for a very long time!

Friday Five

The Colors in the Wheel [1]

1. If you were a crayon, which color would you want to be? Sunshine Yellow

2. Which color do you think you would be regardless of what you wanted? Red

3. Would you rather be used and get blunt, broken and lose your wrapper, or not be used and stay pristine? Used, blunt, broken and naked (lost wrapper). I would rather be used, because things that are truly loved always show wear & tear!

4. Would you rather be in a small set of crayons or a large set? I would want to be the big box, because the possibilities are endless with all those colors!

5. Would you rather be Crayola, or a different brand? Definately Crayola

Harry Potter Fans

What are your plans for July 21, 2007?? Mine are to buy & read the book! It will be so exciting, but sad all at the same time! There will be no more books to look forward to reading! I have been so hyped up about the "next" book for so long, that the idea of no more "Christmas Morning" anticipation for Harry Potter books will definitely bum me out! I have a feeling Harry will die. I have a feeling he will meet up with the people most important to him . . his Mom & Dad, Sirius & Dumbledore!

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How can a person be a Harry Potter fan & a Slytherin fan at the same time?! I recently read a blog, and learned that there are fans out there who are BIG Slytherin fans. I am clearly very naive or sheltered, because it never occurred to me that there were so many Slytherin fans out there! My opinion is that you can't be a fan of Harry & cheer for the Slytherins because all the Slytherins hate Harry! I can't imagine reading the books and cheering for Harry's demise! I am a HUGE Harry fan, and am reading the books for the umpteenth time. I tried to figure out how many times I have read them, and come up with at least 8, but probably more! Leave a comment, because I would love to hear your thoughts on this! If there are any Slytherins reading this blog, bring it on--explain yourselves! I am very curious about your feelings toward Harry, and your reasons for choosing Slytherin!

What Was the #1 Song on the Day You Were Born?

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The #1 song on the day I was born was

Joy to the World by Three Dog Night

I love 70's Music, and this is one of my fav's! What was the #1 song on the day you were born?

Update on Benny

I just learned that Dr. Mills told Brady that it was evident to her that Benny's body was beginning to shut down. She said that the muscle deterioration and the potty issues were signs that things weren't good for the little guy! I am feeling much better after hearing this, because I know that I didn't make a mistake! If Dr. Mills was confident I made a good choice, I can be OK with it!

Benny's Journey

Benny, I can sense that you're weary;

Grown tired of pain and strife.

And I'm certain as stars in the Heavens-

That you've come to the crossroads of life.

Benny, you must know that I love you...

And this moment for me is so hard.

But I swear to let go of you gently;

As I offer this prayer up to God:

Dearest Lord, you will see that he's fragile;

But so charming if given a chance.

He will follow your steps like a shadow-

And he doesn't just walk... he will PRANCE!

He has never been much for playing;

Maybe a game of tag now and then.

Yet he will curl up next to you in a heartbeat-

And beg for table scraps, that’s my Ben-Ben!

This little Dog is as tough as they come;

but I know he is scared & feeling alone.

Please pick him up and hold him tight,
And let him know that I’m all right!

Tribute to My Benny

I sent my little buddy to heaven today. It makes me so sad! I have had him since July of 1996 and life won't be the same without him. He was old and failing and I made the choice to end the pain and suffering he was experiencing. I knew it was time, when touching his frail little body made him cry out in pain. I stroked his little neck this morning when I got home from work and he cried out and ran and hid from me. I had hurt him in a tender touch, and I refused to allow that to continue to happen. Jaxon, Benny, Cheyenne and I all went up for a nap, and when we woke, I called Dr. Mills. She came to the house and compassionately administered a medication that put him into a deep sleep. It was the same medicine used to anesthesize animals prior to surgery. After that she stopped his little heart. The first medication was supposed to be given IM, but the little guy didn't even have enough muscle to inject the medicine into, so she had to inject into the small amount of subcutaneous tissue in his back leg. He went peacefully at home in our kitchen. I didn't have to take him to a vet clinic, so it wasn't as scarey for him as it could have been.

Benny has been there for me for almost 11 years. He was there when I hurt and was always good for a snuggle during a rough time. Cheyenne & Benny were my family for so many years, and got me through some really rough times. I hate that he is gone, but I know that keeping him here would not have been fair. Goodbye, Little Buddy! You are missed and will be in my heart forever!

A Meme

1.- If I were a fruit I'd be...a raspberry
2.- If I were a color I'd be... yellow
3.- If I were an animal I'd be... a polar bear
4.- If I were a domestic appliance I'd be... an oven, warm inside and filled with wonderful things
5.- If I were a book I'd be... The bible . . I need to be filled with God's word!
6.- If I were a clothing item I'd be... mittens. . soft & warm
7.- If I were a jewel I'd be... a sapphire
8.- If I were an object I'd be... a park bench
9.- If I were a car I'd be... a hummer
10.- If I were an element I'd be... platinum
11.- If I were a tree I'd be... willow tree, beautiful and has a quiet ,protected place
12.- If I were a drink I'd be... wine
13.- If I were an ice cream flavor I'd be... chocolate peanut butter
14.- If I were a person I'd be.. ME
15.- If I were a planet I'd be... Earth, I like it here
16.- If I were an insect I'd be... a dragonfly
17.- If I were public transport I'd be... The Subway
18.- If I were a song I'd be... Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds
19.- If I were a movie I'd be... Disney Pixar Cars
0.- If I were a season I'd be... spring
21.- If I were a flower I'd be... a lilac
22.- If I were a job I'd be... a Mom, the most rewarding yet
23.- If I were a cartoon I'd be... Calvin & Hobbes
24.- If I were a place I'd be... Lahaina, Maui
25.- If I were a gift I'd be... an afghan
26.- If I were a memory I'd be... the day Jaxon was born
27.- If I were a city I'd be... Manhattan, NY
28.- If I were a sense I'd be... hearing
29.- If I were a game I'd be... Hold' Em
30.- If I were a candy I'd be... Godiva chocolate
31.- If I were a time of the day I'd be... midnight
32.- If I were an invention I'd be... MP3 player
3.- If I were a bodypart I'd be... an eye
34.- If I were a country I'd be... Switzerland
35.- If I were a flavor I'd be... mint
36.- If I were a sport I'd be... Football all the way!
37.- If I were a smell I'd be... plumeria blossom
38.- If I were a subject I'd be... Human Growth & Development
39.- If I were a flag I'd be...United States Flag
40.- If I were a building I'd be... A beach house on Maui
41.- If I were a month I'd be... May
42.- If I were a perfume I'd be... Bath & Body's White Tea & Ginger
43.- If I were a gummy candy I'd be... a gummy shark
45.- If I were a toy I'd be... a build-a-bear Teddy Bear
46.- If I were a textile I'd be... soft cotton
47.- If I were a shape I'd be... cube
48.- If I were an answer I'd be... NO
49.- If I were an instrument I'd be... an Alto Sax
50.- If I were a word I'd be... magic

Let It Snow!

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Our weather forecast is for ice & snow. I really, really want snow, and lots of it! I could do without the ice that is forecast for Saturday, but I am really hoping for snow! I want to go sledding, and if I had lots of snow and lots of time, would have to build a couple of Calvin & Hobbes style snowmen! What do you like to do in the snow??

Countdown MEME

Ten movies you’d watch over and over:
1. Ever After
2. Save the Last Dance
3. Disney Pixar's Cars
4. Tombstone
5. Harry Potter The Sorcerers Stone
6. Harry Potter Chamber of Secrets
7. Harry Potter Goblet of Fire
8. The Santa Claus
9. Finding Nemo
10. Autumn in New York

Nine people you enjoy the company of: (Dena, you are in the top 12 :o)
1. Jaxon
2. Brady
3. Jaxon
4. Jill
5. Jessica
6. Jada
7. Tanner
8. Mom
9. Tara

Eight things you’re wearing:
8. jammie pants
7. undies
6. nursing cami
5. Faith bracelet
4. Ponytail scrunchy
3. gumball bracelet (Jada & I have matching ones)
2. wedding ring
1. my ring from Melanie (aka Jaxon's Nana)

Seven things on your mind:
7. my trip to see Dawn tomorrow :o)
6. Jaxon
5. cleaning house
4. work schedule
3. budget (organizing it)
2. sleep
1. sleep

Six objects you touch every day:

6. computer
5. diapers
4. pop can
3. toothbrush
2. soap
1. cell phone

Five things you do everyday:
5. change diapers
4. brush teeth
3. get dressed
2. go to the bathroom
1. Get out of bed

Four bands or musical artists that you couldn’t live without:
1. Chris Ledoux
2. The Beatles
3. Neal McCoy
4. George Strait

Three of your favorite songs of the moment:

3. Look at You Girl
2. No Doubt About It
1. Hey Jude

Two people who have influenced your life the most:
2. Jaxon
1.My Grandpa
One person who has been nice to you today:
Brady