Books!

My friend, Dawn, has been reading a book a month, and then writes about these books on her blog. That is a great idea, but it doesn't work for me. I am stuck in a bizarre pattern, and don't know why! When I find a book I like, I HAVE to read it over and over. I read the "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" and the 3 sequels, and then read them all again 2 times. After that, I read Jude Deveroux's "A Knight in Shining Armor" and have read it twice, and have the compulsion to read it again. I have also done this with the Harry Potter books, and the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. I find this behavior a little bit odd, and wonder why I feel the need to read and re-read books over and over again! Any ideas???

Friday Five
1. If you could suddenly speak one language fluently (that you don't currently speak) what would it be?
Japanese
2. If you were to suggest a foreign film, that you really enjoyed, what one would you suggest?
I don't know of any--anybody have a suggestions?
3. If you had to call another country home (other than the one you currently live in) what one would you choose?
Switzerland
4. If you went out to buy an import music CD, what one would you buy?
No clue! I def need to expand my horizons!
5. If you were to chose an ethnic dinner, what would it be?
Indian--I love Indian food!

Scared!

I have faced death before, but now that I have Jaxon, any possible threats to my life are a thousand times more horrifying. I may be over-reacting, but then again, maybe not! Wednesday afternoon, I collapsed while getting ready to go out for Valentines day. Brady gave me a hug (and not a bear hug) and the next thing I knew, he was calling my name, and I felt like I was waking from a deep sleep. I had fallen to the ground and was totally out for about 10 seconds. We went to the clinic, and the only thing that showed up was low blood pressure. I continue to have symptoms of low blood pressure, and am getting worried! It may be exhaustion, but could also be something more serious, like a brain tumor. I am not allowed to work or drive until I see the Doctor again. I hope it is nothing!!!

I am scared that I will miss out on seeing my precious little boy grow into a man. I have waited so long to have this little guy, and now there is a chance that I may miss out on all of his important life moments. I want to see him walk, start school, graduate, and all the little things in between. I have so many things I want to teach him. I want him to know that he is enough, and that there is somebody in this world who loves him for him, and not for his accomplishments. I want him to know the importance of spreading joy to everybody you meet. I also want to spend lots of time laughing and loving him. I hope that I get that chance. These last couple of days with him have been even more special to me, and I didn't ever think that was possible. I cherish all the time I get with my incredible little boy, and all I want is to share in his life . . for a very long time!