"Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; Do not merely look out

I truly love this verse! It describes my philosophy on life completely. Not that I am able to live by this all the time, but it is what I strive for. With Jaxon, this is easy! I find myself not only wanting to put his wants, needs and desires before mine, but enjoying it! My life has become making him happy, by not only spending time with him, but looking for ways to make his life more enjoyable. I want him to have everything. I want him to have the nicest most comfy clothing, the best toys that are fun and aid in his development, and anything and everything that will either be enjoyable for him or aid in his growth and development! It is so exciting for me to think of all of the fun times we will hopefully have together as he grows. Along with the intense love I have for this incredible little boy, I also have anxiety about his safety ALL the time. In talking with my friends with children, I realize this in normal, but totally unexpected. I realize how detrimental it would be if I were to lose him. I worry about how I would survive without him, and this makes me realize just how horrific of an experience it is for people who have lost a child. Back to the topic--This verse came from a blogger's entry that started with the question "How do you say goodbye to somebody that you will never see again" WOW! What a scarey question! If it were anybody but Jaxon, I would let them know how important they are to me, and I would have to share some of the reasons, and some of the most special memories I have with the person. If it were Jaxon, it would be much more in depth than that. I am going to assume I was the person that was leaving this world for good (I can handle that a little bit better). I would leave lots of video messages for various occasions in his life, I would leave him birthday card and presents for every year, Christmas presents, too and lots of letters to go with milestones in his life. I would want him to have a little piece of his Mom with him on these occasions. Not because I am being selfish, but because I know how important my Mom is to me, and I know how much I would treasure a letter or gift from her if she were unable to be there to share my life with me!